failed is not truly failed

Actually, the score of toefl ibt has been received in the early morning after I woke up. Yaaap, the score is a lower grade through the requirement from usintec itself. In fact, I was so horrible sad, unpleasant, down tempered, annoyed also..., the score is so bad enough, I think. I aware and I have predicted that the result will be deeply bad cuz of the lack of preparation and I just wanna in hurry to register the test without considering my ability in rehearsal, practice the test, and did not want to read also to listen a lot. But, the fact is saying that I was unable to pass the grade. I only grumble, excuse in my the deepest of my heart relies on my achievement. I had been dying and felt so sorry for my parents that I can not give the best result. And I also have feeling sad in terribly cause of spending much money almost 2 million to pay the test. Yaa Allah.. it feels like I haven't made the parents happy and proud yet, just asking money money and money. Thus, I do believe, someday I will prove for my self, especially for the best parents in my life that I can be and I'm sure be possible to be sucess, powerful, splendid, also kind hearted person in my entire life. Allah still have something beautiful for us if we always trust and believe. Bissmillah.... hope the list my future plans that hang on my wall will come true and happen truly. Be wise to live ^^)

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